I am writing this post with mixed emotions. Saturday night at 8pm, March 8, 2015 was my last nursing session with our son, Brody.
Clint helped me make the decision late Saturday night. It was time for me and Brody. 19 wonderful month of Brody's life I have nursed him and loved the special bond we have. He is a mama's boy and I hope he stays that way (well until he gets married and then it is his wife's heart that is his).
Sunday morning. Clint went to get him when he woke up and I stayed out of sight getting ready for church. Usually feeding him is the first thing we do every day, so keeping him distracted was key. We have been introducing him to almond milk, so Clint gave him that and some organic cereal to munch on.
Giving him and Ava a bath before church also helped to distract, since they LOVE baths.
He 9/10 wants to nurse about 9:45am during church service and asked to yesterday and I kept telling him no and Clint again distracted him.
We played outside yesterday afternoon in the 60 degree weather and he napped during our small group. He asked a few more times, but I would just say "no, all done" and he would whimper and then be ok.
We got home and I started cleaning. I clean when I am upset. So I cleaned the house, to try not to think that the dreaded change in bedtime routine that was about to happen. I avoided sending him to bed until the last possible minute. I gave him kisses and hugs and he looked at me like he knew something was about to happen. My heart broke. I gave one last hug, went to our bedroom and cried. And cried. Ava found me in the bathroom peeing.....and crying. She asked what was wrong and gave me a hug (still on the toilet might I add haha). I told her that I was sad because I wasn't feeding Brody anymore because he's a bog boy. I also told her I was sad and cried when I stopped feeding her. She seemed to understand and asked to cuddle in the bed until it was time for her to go to bed. Ahhh yes please!
Clint would leave the room. Brody would cry. I would cry harder. He would go check on him and then leave. Brody would cry. This went on for about an hour and then he fell asleep. We put Ava to bed and then I went to bed and cried.
My boobs are hurting. They are rock solid. Heavy, like an elephant is sitting on my chest. They will stay this painful for a couple to a few days and then be fine. Your body knows when it is time. I could pump to relieve the pressure, but that prolongs the process in my mind. Go big or go home.
I am sad today. This post is hard to write without sobbing. I probably will be sad for a few days "mourning" the loss of nursing my kids. Lord, willing we are done having kids, so this was my last time to have that special connection with them. Brody and I will grow a different bond to replace this one. Ava and I did. It is a part of the growing process and the first major strings to release from them. (I could totally be Beverly Goldberg, from the ABC tv show!)
I love my kids and would do anything for them, even let them go to grow into the people God wants them to be. It is hard and literally painful right now, but change is hard. If we don't adapt and change, we die!
Showing posts with label Brody Alan. Show all posts
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Monday, March 9, 2015
Tuesday, March 3, 2015
Big step
Well, this past weekend was a first. It all started out as normal. Great workout at the gym. Lunch. Lounge. And then.....
We packed Brody and Ava's things for a night at my parent's house! Yep, big step. Ava's first night away was when Brody was born (3 years old). Brody's first time was Saturday (19 month).
We had planned to take our first ever weekend away from the kids this past weekend and go to Tunica. It was some where neither one of us have been to and it was only about 4 hours away, but our heating/ac unit finally went to the Big units in the sky. I felt kind of bad going to spend money and gamble when we just dropped a chunk of money on a new unit.
We will go probably on our anniversary in April now.
Any way, back to this mama relinquishing the reigns.....for 12 hours. haha
We got them all packed. Ava was super excited and had their whole night planned. My sister still lives with my parent's and she was excited to.
Ava requested pizza for supper and chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast the next morning. Smart girl. Brody is still nursing 2 times a day and I was curious if this break would be the final whoorah for us. We dropped them off....quickly so I wouldn't think about it too much and off we went.
Clint and I went to Opry Mills Mall. Side note...we walked 2 miles around the mall on our date! (Thanks Fitbit) We went to a restaurant called Claim Jumper. Ordered adult beverages and talked. I really like my husband. He is funny and sarcastic and we really do understand each other and am ok with that haha!
We stopped on the way home and got me a bottle of Reisling and him some Crown Royal Apple for him. (that stuff has a whopper of a kick)
And then we did what all exciting parents do with a night without kids......we caught up on our DVR and I went to bed and he played his game on the Playstation 3. Exciting!!!!!
I was able to sleep a little longer and get up and run an uninterrupted 4.5 miles on the treadmill before church. Winning!
Good for my heart, my parents brought them to church the next morning, so it was a whopping 14 hours away from them, but we were all so excited to see each other!!
I can survive a night without the kids. Did Brody stop nursing????? No. Nothing changed. I am going to have to research how to wean this kid. I will never regret nursing either of my kids. (Ava 16 months and Brody is going on 19 months) But I am ready to let that part of my life go. My stubborn and adorable son isn't quite ready yet. We will see I guess!
Have a great day!!
We packed Brody and Ava's things for a night at my parent's house! Yep, big step. Ava's first night away was when Brody was born (3 years old). Brody's first time was Saturday (19 month).
We had planned to take our first ever weekend away from the kids this past weekend and go to Tunica. It was some where neither one of us have been to and it was only about 4 hours away, but our heating/ac unit finally went to the Big units in the sky. I felt kind of bad going to spend money and gamble when we just dropped a chunk of money on a new unit.
We will go probably on our anniversary in April now.
Any way, back to this mama relinquishing the reigns.....for 12 hours. haha
We got them all packed. Ava was super excited and had their whole night planned. My sister still lives with my parent's and she was excited to.
Ava requested pizza for supper and chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast the next morning. Smart girl. Brody is still nursing 2 times a day and I was curious if this break would be the final whoorah for us. We dropped them off....quickly so I wouldn't think about it too much and off we went.
Clint and I went to Opry Mills Mall. Side note...we walked 2 miles around the mall on our date! (Thanks Fitbit) We went to a restaurant called Claim Jumper. Ordered adult beverages and talked. I really like my husband. He is funny and sarcastic and we really do understand each other and am ok with that haha!
We stopped on the way home and got me a bottle of Reisling and him some Crown Royal Apple for him. (that stuff has a whopper of a kick)
And then we did what all exciting parents do with a night without kids......we caught up on our DVR and I went to bed and he played his game on the Playstation 3. Exciting!!!!!
I was able to sleep a little longer and get up and run an uninterrupted 4.5 miles on the treadmill before church. Winning!
Good for my heart, my parents brought them to church the next morning, so it was a whopping 14 hours away from them, but we were all so excited to see each other!!
I can survive a night without the kids. Did Brody stop nursing????? No. Nothing changed. I am going to have to research how to wean this kid. I will never regret nursing either of my kids. (Ava 16 months and Brody is going on 19 months) But I am ready to let that part of my life go. My stubborn and adorable son isn't quite ready yet. We will see I guess!
Have a great day!!
Thursday, August 15, 2013
He finally decided to come out.
Introducing......
Brody Alan
Born: August 12
@ 8:58am
8lbs 4oz
20in long
Birth story to come. It is a doozy.
Our hearts grew when he decided to come out in to the world.
Our family is complete!
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
38 weeks+
How big is baby? Average size: nearly 7 pounds
What is baby doing this week? "Your baby has really plumped up. She weighs about 6.8 pounds and she's over 19 1/2 inches long (like a leek). She has a firm grasp, which you'll soon be able to test when you hold her hand for the first time! Her organs have matured and are ready for life outside the womb."
What about mama? "For many women, the next couple of weeks are a waiting game. Use this time to prepare your baby's nursery or to take care of necessary tasks you may not get around to for a while after your baby's born. Take naps, catch up on your reading, and spend uninterrupted time with your partner while you can."
Dr. appt update:
Weight: same as last week. No weight gain in 6 weeks, but Brody has plenty to steal from his mama!
Pee cup: normal
Blood pressure:116/72
Fundal height: measuring at 38weeks
Cervix check: I am still 2.5cm, but am now 80% effaced. Although, that is so exciting and I am progressing, it still doesn't mean I could go into labor any second. It could be a week or so. WHich makes me sad, because I am ready! My body has been practicing and I am ready to go!
Work: Yep, I will be working until Brody decided it is game time!
Movement: Slowing down, but when he is moving it it very strong!
Cravings: Nothing really. I really don't have much of a appetite.
What I miss? Doing normal things.
What I am looking forward to: Going in to true labor and not all of this false sh*t!
Milestones: Less than 2 weeks until his due date.
How is daddy? Just as anxious as I am. He has started texting me and checking on me.
How is Ava? She is ready for him. She says "he is going to be a baby and be here soon. I'm going to be a good big sister!"
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Not quite sure
Morning! So after going to TSC for dogfood, Best Buy for something for our old laptop, and Trader Joe's, and the park to try and "catch the birds" and watch the ducks, I had my 35 week check up yesterday and things were....interesting.
Pee in a cup-no worries there
Weight-The scale hasn't moved in 4 weeks.
Blood Pressure-104/58
Brody's heartbeat-143
Fundal height-She measured 34....but he has been a week ahead the entire pregnancy.
Strep B swab-lovely.....I'll find out results some time.
Before I left she wanted me to go down and get an ultrasound. She was a little concerned because I haven't gained any weight and she "thought" Brody was measuring behind.
So, with the hint of concern, Ava and I walked down to the ultrasound office and waited to jump in on the schedule. We only had to weight about 30 minutes and then were able to see his beautiful self on the screen!
After the tech took all of his measurements, he is perfect! He (guesstimation) weighs about 5lbs 9oz. On paper as of yesterday I was 34 weeks 6days, but according to his measurements and growth I am 35 weeks and 4 days, so about 5 ish days ahead. Not sure if that will affect my labor, but who knows!!
So, I am not sure where I am in this pregnancy. I'll just say I have about 4 weeks and that should take care of it!
Have a great day!
Pee in a cup-no worries there
Weight-The scale hasn't moved in 4 weeks.
Blood Pressure-104/58
Brody's heartbeat-143
Fundal height-She measured 34....but he has been a week ahead the entire pregnancy.
Strep B swab-lovely.....I'll find out results some time.
Before I left she wanted me to go down and get an ultrasound. She was a little concerned because I haven't gained any weight and she "thought" Brody was measuring behind.
So, with the hint of concern, Ava and I walked down to the ultrasound office and waited to jump in on the schedule. We only had to weight about 30 minutes and then were able to see his beautiful self on the screen!
After the tech took all of his measurements, he is perfect! He (guesstimation) weighs about 5lbs 9oz. On paper as of yesterday I was 34 weeks 6days, but according to his measurements and growth I am 35 weeks and 4 days, so about 5 ish days ahead. Not sure if that will affect my labor, but who knows!!
So, I am not sure where I am in this pregnancy. I'll just say I have about 4 weeks and that should take care of it!
Have a great day!
Sunday, June 30, 2013
34 weeks 6 days
How far along? 34 weeks 6 days
How big is baby? Average size: nearly five pounds.
Average Length: 12.8 inches (crown to rump)
What is baby doing this week? Babyzone.com says "Your unborn baby's muscles are maturing along with the rest of his body. He can hold his head up and turn it from side to side. He'll practice his newfound muscle tone by stretching out his arms and kicking his legs. Most of the lanugo is gone and replaced with a thick coat of vernix."
What about mama? Babyzone.com says "By now you're getting used to the backaches, leg cramps, and other pains that come with the final weeks of pregnancy. You may also experience swelling in your ankles and feet, and sometimes in your face and hands. The swelling is caused in part by pregnancy hormones, which encourage your body to hang on to water to fuel a variety of baby-growing needs. Try drinking plenty of water and elevating your feet as much as possible to relieve swelling. Don't worry—most of your uncomfortable pregnancy symptoms will disappear once you deliver. In some cases—five to 10 percent of pregnancies—persistent swelling may be a sign of a potentially serious condition called preeclampsia. Your healthcare provider will be checking you regularly, however, to make sure that you do not have this condition."
Symptoms: headaches, no really appetite
Maternity clothes: From here on out, no other choice. Dresses or Clint's tshirts
Sleep: I am blessed in that Brody sleeps at night and my sleeping has been good.
Best moment last week?
Movement: Crazy uncomfortable at times, but I wouldn't trade it for the world.
Cravings: Diet coke(fountain drink)
Belly Button in or out: in
What I miss? Sleeping on my stomach.
What I am looking forward to: Seeing his beautiful face!!
Milestones: Getting to the stage of pregnancy that normal daily activites are not possible for me to do!!
How is daddy? Working a lot! He is doing a job that requires 60+ hours a week of him working. He wil get 2 weeks off when Brody comes.
How is Ava? She is almost potty trained!! So proud of her!
How big is baby? Average size: nearly five pounds.
Average Length: 12.8 inches (crown to rump)
What is baby doing this week? Babyzone.com says "Your unborn baby's muscles are maturing along with the rest of his body. He can hold his head up and turn it from side to side. He'll practice his newfound muscle tone by stretching out his arms and kicking his legs. Most of the lanugo is gone and replaced with a thick coat of vernix."
What about mama? Babyzone.com says "By now you're getting used to the backaches, leg cramps, and other pains that come with the final weeks of pregnancy. You may also experience swelling in your ankles and feet, and sometimes in your face and hands. The swelling is caused in part by pregnancy hormones, which encourage your body to hang on to water to fuel a variety of baby-growing needs. Try drinking plenty of water and elevating your feet as much as possible to relieve swelling. Don't worry—most of your uncomfortable pregnancy symptoms will disappear once you deliver. In some cases—five to 10 percent of pregnancies—persistent swelling may be a sign of a potentially serious condition called preeclampsia. Your healthcare provider will be checking you regularly, however, to make sure that you do not have this condition."
Symptoms: headaches, no really appetite
Maternity clothes: From here on out, no other choice. Dresses or Clint's tshirts
Sleep: I am blessed in that Brody sleeps at night and my sleeping has been good.
Best moment last week?
Movement: Crazy uncomfortable at times, but I wouldn't trade it for the world.
Cravings: Diet coke(fountain drink)
Belly Button in or out: in
What I miss? Sleeping on my stomach.
What I am looking forward to: Seeing his beautiful face!!
Milestones: Getting to the stage of pregnancy that normal daily activites are not possible for me to do!!
How is daddy? Working a lot! He is doing a job that requires 60+ hours a week of him working. He wil get 2 weeks off when Brody comes.
How is Ava? She is almost potty trained!! So proud of her!
Thursday, May 2, 2013
25 and 26 week update!
How far along? 26 weeks and 2 days
How big is baby?
What is baby doing this week? Babyzone.com says "This week your baby-to-be opens his eyes for the first time. She'll open and shut his eyes as he gets used to his new ability. Your little one is still on the small side. His body may look fully formed on the outside, but inside there's fine-tuning taking place, including his lungs and brain. Your unborn baby still has some growing to do!"
What is going on in mama? Pregnancy induced Allergies are still here, but very mild now. Local honey and QB Complex work wonders.
Symptoms: If I sit for a while my butt and back start to hurt, but other than that nothing big, but I get adjusted every other day and that is so helpful!!
Total weight gain: A lot!
Exercise: I take Ava and Pekka on 2 mile walk/jogs about 3-4 days a week.
Exercise: I take Ava and Pekka on 2 mile walk/jogs about 3-4 days a week.
Maternity clothes: There are clothes that aren't maternity???
Sleep: Pretty good for the last week actually.
Best moment last week?
Movement: Oh yes!
Cravings: Eating clean, healthy, natural foods.
Belly Button in or out: Still in there, but barely!
What I miss? Having a body that can do whatever I want. Things are starting to get harder and harder. Like shaving standing up!
What I am looking forward to: Not hearing from the glucose test. No news is good news.
Milestones: Last week in 2rd tri.
How is daddy and Ava? So sweet. They tell Brody about their day each night before we go to sleep.
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
23-24 weeks with Brody
23 weeks
24 weeks
How far along? 24 weeks!
How big is baby? Your 10.5-to-11.8-inch fetus weighs about 12.7 to 20.8 ounces
- His see-through skin is gradually becoming more opaque.
- And it's got a new pink glow, thanks to the small capillaries that have recently formed.
Symptoms: Some sciatic pain, but I get adjusted every other day. Man, I wish I had known about Chiropractic when I was pregnant with Ava. It is amazing!!
I have accrued pregnancy allergies. I have never had allergies before so this is new to me. I have ordered a natural vitamin QB Complex that is a natural histamine to help with that.
Total weight gain: whew!
Maternity clothes: Dresses are amazing!
Sleep: Pretty good actually!
Best moment last week: My mom was able to feel Brody last week! I have actually ran twice in the past few days. Makes me feel proud of myself! Although, it makes me hungry the next day!
Movement: Yes please and thank you!
Cravings: Turkey sandwiches
Belly Button in or out: Creeping to the surface.
What I miss? BEER!!!
What I am looking forward to: hmmm
Milestones: Brody is at the viable stage!
How is daddy? Great. We just celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary and enjoyed a date night Saturday. He really is so fun to be with!
How is Ava? She prays for "big big Brody and Ava a big sister every night. Melts my heart!
Thursday, April 4, 2013
21-22 weeks!
Hidey Ho lovies!!!! Here is the weekly update to peruse!!
How far along? 22 weeks
How big is baby? Average size:just over 12 ounces (a coke can!) Length: About 11in from head to toe.
What is going on in mama? This is what I wrote at 22 weeks with Ava and I feel like it is deja vu......"Growth! Mama is having a hard time adjusting to this body to be honest. I am just NOT understanding how my husband thinks I am beautiful. I believe him when he tells me, but a piece of me is like "how"? This past week my mental aspect has been working overtime!! I just need to get over it and accept this body is a vessel for the beautiful blessing that we have made."
I do not do well pregnant!
Symptoms: Random Crying fits, expanding belly
Total weight gain: Way more than those stupid charts! My body gains weight on salads!
Maternity clothes: No other way!
Sleep: Pretty good actually!
Best moment last week: Feeling Brody in two spots at the same time!
Movement: More and more frequent!
Cravings: Hmm...cheese and peanut butter
Belly Button in or out: Middle of the road.
What I miss? Honestly, I am missing my in shape body.
What I am looking forward to: Every day I feel him!
Milestones: We are on the down slope.
How is daddy? Supportive when I randomly cry!
How is Ava? She knows exactly what is going on!
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
19 weeks and 20 weeks
How far along? Half way, 20 weeks
How big is baby? Average size: 9oz, Length: 6in (crown to rump)
What is baby doing this week? Babyzone.com says "By week 20, your baby-to-be is gearing up for the next phase in her development—filling out. Her organs are getting into their proper places. Her kidneys are now in position with their familiar bean shape. Her ovaries have reached their position. Her brain continues to form and grow. Herr teeth are beginning to appear, and she can swallow. If you haven't been able to feel him move, chances are you'll be feeling him move more and more over the coming weeks."
What is going on in mama? Growing steadily as I should.
Symptoms: Nothing really. Random bouts of hunger.
Total weight gain: It has continued to slow down.
Maternity clothes: Dresses and leggings. I'm not a huge fans of maternity pants.
Sleep: Fine I suppose. Sweating and weird dreams have started up.
Best moment last week: Feeling Brody more consistently.
Movement: I'm starting to notice a pattern like I did with Ava. Brody is mid-morning and later in the afternoon.
Cravings: Still rocking the healthy eating. No desire for sweets really!
Belly Button in or out: Slowly creeping closer to the surface.
What I miss: Sometimes I feel like this body is someone else's. Each time I pass a mirror I think WHO IS THAT???
What I am looking forward to: More actual kicks and less flutters. Although, I will probably regret this later!
Milestones: It is all down hill now!
How is daddy? He's still the greatest!
How big is baby? Average size: 9oz, Length: 6in (crown to rump)
What is baby doing this week? Babyzone.com says "By week 20, your baby-to-be is gearing up for the next phase in her development—filling out. Her organs are getting into their proper places. Her kidneys are now in position with their familiar bean shape. Her ovaries have reached their position. Her brain continues to form and grow. Herr teeth are beginning to appear, and she can swallow. If you haven't been able to feel him move, chances are you'll be feeling him move more and more over the coming weeks."
What is going on in mama? Growing steadily as I should.
Symptoms: Nothing really. I 'm still feeling great!!
Total weight gain: At the Big U/S appt with the substitute doc, I had gained 7, so a total of 13. Although, that is ok and in range, I seem to be conscious of what I eat and make sure I exercise each day! I don't want to get in trouble at our next appt.
Maternity clothes: Pants yes. I can't actually fit in them now!
Sleep: Fine I suppose. I can't seem to sleep past 6am though. This is kind of gross but I wake up sweating so much!!! Apparently, I am a furnace now!
Best moment last week: Our U/S and seeing our healthy baby girl, Ava.
Movement: I'm starting to notice a pattern. Early in the morning I feel her slightly, mid-day after lunch she does her daily flutter kicks, and around 9pm. It's the most amazing thing. Makes me smile every time!
Cravings: None really that I can think of. ODD!
Belly Button in or out: Slowly creeping closer to the surface.
What I miss: Sometimes I feel like this body is someone else's. Each time I pass a mirror (not hard to do when they line the walls of my gym!) I think WHO IS THAT??? But it is worth it!
What I am looking forward to: More actual kicks and less flutters. Although, I will probably regret this later!
Milestones: It is all down hill now!
How is daddy? He still the greatest!
How is Ava? She knows I have a baby in my belly and makes the connection that Brody is her brother. She prays for the baby and for Ava a big sister. Sweetest prayer ever!
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
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